The Long Silence

It’s been 4 months since my last entry and comments.  Wow…I didn’t realize It was indeed quite a long period.  And now…seems that I don’t know how to write anymore.  It’s quite hard for me to find words to start this entry.

I did check my blog and also the updates of my blogger friend from time to time, but I decide to just being an observer than a participant.  I decide not to leave any comments or explanation for a while.  It was because I was very ‘sick’ and I don’t have strength to dig my brain for any simple comments or feedback.  Let alone to write an entry on my blog.

Some of you might remember or notice that I have mentioned a terrible headache I have every time I open and look at my laptop for a long period.  Well…to tell you the truth…it’s just a beginning for a long suffering. It get worse and worse on the following weeks that I spend my days laying on my bed or couch fighting the terrible headache and my evening to nights vomiting.  I couldn’t leave my stomach empty and I will vomit after I eat…that vomiting has become a daily routine for me. 

 

A few days after I write my last entry on this blog, I try to find out what was wrong with me.  And a visit to a doctor a few days later confirmed my suspicion.  It was a good news that my husband and I have been waiting for 3 years.  I am pregnant!  And that time I was about 7 weeks pregnant.  All my headache and all discomforts vanished for a while upon hearing the news. I was filled with joy and gratitude.  I like to laugh and cry at the same time.  Well..it’s not every day we receive a great news like that. 

 

Anyway..as I said earlier, my sickness getting worse and worse on the following weeks.  Headache, vomiting, sensitive sense of smell and heart burn continues.  All of it make me sick.  My house was in a mess especially my kitchen. I really hate the sight and the smell of my kitchen.  I try to avoid entering or getting near it at all cost.  In other words…I cannot cook!  I don’t want to eat what my husband cook either. The solution??? We eat out EVERYDAY.  Even that, not all food were acceptable for me.  And any food that was acceptable for me might end up been vomited after that.  Oh my…..it was so challenging!!

I am 6 months pregnant now.  And thank God, my so called ‘morning sickness’ was completely gone by the 5^th months of my pregnancy.  I still got a light headache sometimes and still a bit choosy of my food but it’s not as bad as before.  

I hope this explain my long silence.  For those of you who leave messages to me, thank you for your concern and please accept my apology for not giving feedback as soon as possible.  I was so weak and sick and also I decide to hold the news among close friends and families for the time being. And please pray for me that all will be well with my baby and me.