Under The Sky Of 2013

A Sunset View..in front of my house.

2013 has just left us.  Disappear in the horizon and flew away …far far away with the rest of the yesteryears. 

Personally, I don’t really fancy 2013.  If I were asked, what I remember most about year 2013, my answer would be…the nasty Invasion of my beloved country, Sabah by the cruel group of people from the neighboring country.  Each time I try to recall the whole incident, what I feel…the fear..the anxiety..worries about my husband’s safety, and the fact that I have to live with that fear all by myself night and day with only my 8 months baby as company, it always makes me breathe deeply.  It’s like I am getting through the moment all over again.  So, I just hope and pray that, it really is over.

The other highlights for my journey on 2013 was…how I faced and deal with everyday challenges as someone who is quite educated but just a full time housewife. Not that I am complaining…I choose that way of life for the sake of my love one..but, I cannot deny it’s really challenging. It was a fifth year on my marriage and one year plus as a mom…and you know what they say about 5^th year of marriage phase? I guess there’s no need for me to be so detail about it.  If you have gone through it, surely you know what I mean.   But if the other way round, just let time telling you.  Besides, I won’t be able to explain it accurately. And just like adding salts to wound, 2013 was a year which I found lots of people who were so eager to judge my life and try to bring me down.  Well, I am in my 30’s and I have been through a lot in the past.  I know who I am and my capability. A silly judgment won’t easily break me…but still it hurts me emotionally.  

For those of you who had been following my blog for a long time, you might notice that most of my post sounds like I am a happy person, who has a bed of no thorn roses as a stage to dance at day time and bed to sleep at night.  Well, I am just an ordinary human being…I have my high and low moment.  In fact, I guess I cry more than I laugh.  But, I am trying to teach myself to count my blessings more and complain less.  I am not sure if it’s a right thing to do but I am just tired being miserable.  So, I guess, I better choose to be happy no matter what.

So to make a conclusion of my journey under the sky of 2013, I must say….it just another ordinary year for me.  No great event and no ‘epic’ achievement.  But I am thankful that there is no serious unwanted incident as well.   And though I’ve been tested emotionally from all angle of life, I manage to get through it without any serious damage.  It's a pleasant year actually.  I am thankful with all experiences it gave me, be it good..be it bad, and value the precious lessons it imprinted unto me.  Because of it, I wake up to the morning sun of 2014…a bit more stronger and hopefully wiser. And I hope you too have an encouraging spirits to start the journey of the New Year.

Until Later!